Just wanted to comment-I just stumbled on this article. I too diagnosed myself with OCD at a young age and went through several different phases of obsession (very whack-a-mole-esque, one obsession is defeated and another rises to take its place!) I took shrooms two years ago and had a trip in which I believed I had dementia, which sent me on a horrendous obsession spiral linked with depersonalization/derealization. Through ERP I managed to fight myself out of it after more than a year of living in a nightmare every day, with my OCD feeding the anxiety that causes the DPDR. I trawled forms forever, thinking that my brain had been completely broken by shrooms. Though I am so much better today (almost “normal”, though as you said, the pieces don’t all go back quite the same in the end), stumbling on this article has been very validating. I hope you are well and I wish the best for you and your journey forward!
thank you for reading, and so happy to hear about your success. Keep fighting the good fight. This is a timely comment, as I'll be speaking about this Wednesday, and you just gave me some extra confidence. Seems the obsession with psychedelic 'contamination' is more common than I believed.
Thanks for sharing this. Been having a rough patch and feeling like nobody understands my theme of OCD- very similar to yours, only mine is more focused on religion. But with the same themes of losing the love of life and changing perception; being unable to get back to the person I was before. It was nice to get some validation that someone out there knows what I'm going through and got to the other side! Keep walking through the fire!
I am! As well as meditating, journaling, and generally learning what I can do to take charge of my mental health every day. It's still a daily battle, but dare I say I've walked through the worst of the flame. I definitely appreciate people like you bringing light to the struggle and showing those of us still battling constant OCD thoughts that there is a path to freedom if you're willing to work for it.
Very well! I feel secure in saying that I'm in "recovery"- which is of course still a daily battle of not falling into my old patterns and staying afloat.
Thanks for checking in- I really appreciate it. :)
Just wanted to comment-I just stumbled on this article. I too diagnosed myself with OCD at a young age and went through several different phases of obsession (very whack-a-mole-esque, one obsession is defeated and another rises to take its place!) I took shrooms two years ago and had a trip in which I believed I had dementia, which sent me on a horrendous obsession spiral linked with depersonalization/derealization. Through ERP I managed to fight myself out of it after more than a year of living in a nightmare every day, with my OCD feeding the anxiety that causes the DPDR. I trawled forms forever, thinking that my brain had been completely broken by shrooms. Though I am so much better today (almost “normal”, though as you said, the pieces don’t all go back quite the same in the end), stumbling on this article has been very validating. I hope you are well and I wish the best for you and your journey forward!
thank you for reading, and so happy to hear about your success. Keep fighting the good fight. This is a timely comment, as I'll be speaking about this Wednesday, and you just gave me some extra confidence. Seems the obsession with psychedelic 'contamination' is more common than I believed.
Thanks for sharing this. Been having a rough patch and feeling like nobody understands my theme of OCD- very similar to yours, only mine is more focused on religion. But with the same themes of losing the love of life and changing perception; being unable to get back to the person I was before. It was nice to get some validation that someone out there knows what I'm going through and got to the other side! Keep walking through the fire!
You're not alone. Doing ERP for this?
Thanks for reading.
I am! As well as meditating, journaling, and generally learning what I can do to take charge of my mental health every day. It's still a daily battle, but dare I say I've walked through the worst of the flame. I definitely appreciate people like you bringing light to the struggle and showing those of us still battling constant OCD thoughts that there is a path to freedom if you're willing to work for it.
How are you doing now?
Very well! I feel secure in saying that I'm in "recovery"- which is of course still a daily battle of not falling into my old patterns and staying afloat.
Thanks for checking in- I really appreciate it. :)